I'm not the same person that I was at the beginning of the year. It's finally starting to sink in. That girl doesn't exist anymore. The more time I spend by myself, the more I realize how truly self-sufficient I really am.
I don't need to be constantly reassured about things. I don't seek out approval from whatever random person feels like passing judgment on me. I can stand on my own now, and I really could care less what anyone else thinks of me.
So what if you don't like my music? Who cares if you think my eye make-up is too bright. I don't really give a flying fuck. All these petty little things are so trivial and ridiculous that it just makes me want to scream sometimes. I'm not on this planet to amuse you.
I just nod my head and bear it while you run your mouth and make your assumptions. It's not worth it to me to even acknowledge your self-serving ways.
I am who I am. I turned out like this because it was simply meant to happen. Things kind of just fell into place over the years. If you can't accept that, then I really don't care about you.
Don't preach your beliefs to me. Don't try to force things upon me. I'll fight you with every last breath in my body. I will not conform to your ways. I have my own thoughts. I have my own opinions. I can see straight through all the propaganda, and all the lies.
I've been hurt more times than I ever care to recall. I gave myself to people who should never have been given access to my heart. I suffered tremendous pain over, and over, and over again. Well let me tell you...I'm over it. I'm just completely done.
If you can't see me for who I really am...and accept my faults...and cope with my weaknesses...well then you don't exist to me. I'm never giving myself to another person who can't see the real me. I won't be led by the blind. Fuck you.
